Catch me if you can/ Stuck in the middle………. Whatever !! Pt 2

The great voyage was to England and on arrival, I was too busy surviving to pay any attention to boys, and I don’t think they did to me. Of course looking back they must have, but it was more important for me to pass than to be passed around.

While I was not prolific in secondary school, I did have friends who were, the ones that were sleeping with men twice their age, the ones who were sleeping with 2 boys at the same time and the ones who just went the easy route and got pregnant. Either way I was determined not to be one of those girls and kept my eyes on my books, (might explain why I now wear glasses).

After secondary school I made my way to college and then I started to take an active interests in guys, tall guys, short guys, white, black, purple, green suddenly it seemed like the world was full of guys I wanted to see. Even more suddenly (I think it’s sudden, but it might have been a few months) this wonderful French guy came into my life, he was sexy, thoughtful and I figured he was only in town for a while so, why not.

I enjoyed it, I lost the big V, and moved on with my life (we are still friends, we email often) and figured well it wasn’t like Mills and Boons (and other books I had read since those days, but it wasn’t bad, I certainly did not feel that I had crossed a bridge, maybe I hopped a creek!).

The rest of my college days, weeks, months, were followed by study, a few dates, some good and some bad, the good ones we laughed and played and remained friends, the bad ones were very bad. The guy who was so emotionally abusive, (I’m not a small girl, but sometimes words can really make you feel tiny), to the one that tried to hit me, (he ended up with a black eye my mama din’t raise no fool). I won’t say that I’ve had a lot of lovers, but I have been lucky, a lot of guys I went out with are my friends (going out does not imply sex by the way, so get your mucky minds out of the gutter) but no long term relationships.

I’ve often wondered why it is that I can’t sustain a long term relationship, or rather why a long term relationship cannot sustain me, I guess its simply an issue of trust. After your father messes you up with daddy issues it kinda get a bit difficult to trust (of course the main question is, is there woman who does not have daddy issues, if not, more power to you, as kid rock said, ‘it ain’t easy dating a woman with daddy issues’) Of course you cannot blame your parents for the mess up of your love life, but in this issue I think I can point a finger or two or ten.

Either way after college, off I went to University, and boy did they get it right, Uni is a lot of fun, you just have to prioritize when you will mess around. I would suggest your first year (if you are studying in England) cus that year doesn’t count. My first year was all about fun fun fun, I made new friends, I danced a lot, I laughed more and took my first trip to Amsterdam (it was a gas, I did not smoke or inhale, but I did shop for everything and the red light district is really very nice, honest!). Being the practical kinda girl that I am after my first year I spent the remaining 2 years studying very hard and in the interim, I learnt a lot about me and what I would and would not do (no I won’t tell, but there are things I would not do)